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"And one begins to suspect an awful thing: that people believe that they deserve their history, and that when they operate on this belief, they perish. But one knows that they can scarcely avoid believing that they deserve it; one’s short time on this earth is very mysterious and very dark and very hard. I have known many black men and women and black boys and girls who really believed that it was better to be white than black, whose lives were ruined or ended by this belief; and I, myself, carried the seeds of this destruction within me for a long time."

James Baldwin, “White Man’s Guilt”

Reading Baldwin’s remarkably lucid and powerfully articulated “White Man’s Guilt” I am reminded, thematically if not in terms quality, of an essay I wrote in undergrad. I was writing about apartheid era South Africa, but also, I’ve since realized, about home, about the American inner-city:

Black consciousness activist Steve Biko explained once to his white liberal companion, Donald Woods, as he took him through the streets of a black shanty-town:

“[if you survive childhood] you grow up in these streets, these houses [in the black ghetto]. Your parents try, but in the end, you only get the education the white man can give you. Then you go to the city, to work, to shop. You see their streets, their cars their houses. And you begin to feel that there is something not quite right about yourself, about your humanity, something to do with your blackness. Because no matter how dumb or smart a white child is, he is born into that world, but you, a black child, smart or dumb, you’re born into this,and smart or dumb, you’ll die in it.” (Cry Freedom)

In his account of the black child’s encounter with the white world, Biko crystallizes conceptions of two distinct physical spaces. One, containing “these streets and these houses”, is characterized by squalor, violence and poverty. The other, containing “their streets, their cars, their houses” is characterized by manifestations of wealth and privilege.

Biko asserts that, when confronted with the contrast between the two spaces, a black man associates the “inhumanity” of the conditions in his space with his blackness. Further, when Biko comments on the different worlds that black and white children are born into, he refers not just to a world of privileges, but also to a disparate set of physical spaces which neither is likely ever to leave, other than “to shop” or “to work” in the case of the black child. In this sense, physical space was woven into the very fabric of what it meant to be black or white.

Social commentator and urban design critic James Kunstler reminds us that the design and condition of our cities tell us who we are, where we’ve been, where we hope to go. The same is true of a city’s subdivisions, wards and neighborhoods like the one in DC where I grew up.

What the regal, crumbling old houses told us was that we inherited the discards of more worthy people; that they’d abandoned this decaying history to pursue another, separate from ours.

And the public housing tenements that rose up alongside them - bleak, square and imposing as they were - told us that we were tiny, divorced from history and nature, and going nowhere.

Shops with glass two inches thick separating black patron from yellow proprietor and the eerie absence of palatable public gathering places, complete the frame. All of this suggests most insidiously to a malleable young mind “that they deserve their history”, and their present.

-Tariq

(Source: notime4yourshit)

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A recollection of 9/11

It struck me a couple months back, talking to the girls I mentor, that despite growing up in its shadow, many kids today don’t really have a sense of what 9/11 was, what it meant, what it means.

I remember the day well. I was coming out of first period English class when I got news that the first plane had struck. Students and teachers huddled around TVs, excited, hushed, then horrified. My little sister came to me crying and I held her as we tried to get our young minds around it all.

School got out early the afternoon and when I got home I joined my neighbor Bekah on her porch swing. We sat there in silence mostly. We lived in Anacostia, between Bowling and Andrews Air Force Bases and there was a constant traffic of planes and helicopters overhead, presaging the shock and awe to come.

That night I couldn’t sleep. I ached quietly for those we’d lost, and for the people who’d feel their loss most agonizingly. I ached, too, for what we would lose. Young as I was, I remember having a clear sense of what the events of that day meant. 

I was heartbroken in anticipation. 

I new that the terror was just beginning; that these next years could be dark ones for high ideals at home, and hellish ones for anonymously-brown people in places invisible to our moral esteem.

At school on September 12th, we were invited to share reflections on the moment we were living through. I shared a poem I’d scrawled on notepaper the uneasy night before. It appeared in the Washington Post’s 9/11 memorial centerfold the next week.

I only really recall the opening verse:

That majestic pair,

The twin towers, 

Symbols of power’s mighty swell, 

Cowered in jet plane’s rough embrace, 

Then crumbled and fell.

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"People who imagine that history flatters them (as it does, indeed, since they wrote it) are impaled on their history like a butterfly on a pin and become incapable of seeing or changing themselves, or the world."

— James Baldwin

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This piece in the NYT today left me uneasy. I don’t dispute Cohen’s claims that there is a lot of paranoia in the Middle-East, and that theories of conspiracy that wouldn’t seem plausible anywhere else seem valid in the minds of some Arabs. And further, that this paranoia seems inevitably to place Americans and Jews as the agents of conspiracy.

I do object, however, to how he dismisses the tendency of some Arabs towards paranoia as a bizarre cultural artifact without noting its historical roots. The peoples of the Middle-East have been subject to sinister conspiracies, from within and from outside powers through the colonial period, WWI/II, the Cold War and today. Maybe the cultural tendency towards paranoia comes of the historical fact of their “conspiratorial victimhood”. To suggest that they should/can just shake-off what history has taught them, is misguided.

This talk by @Stanford prof Priya Satia sheds light on the history that has no doubt contributed towards this cultural tendency. Satia might also have interesting things to say about the historical legacy of the term “The Captive Arab Mind”, in particular, how it echoes (almost word for word) the deeply racist and ill-informed policies of the British in the Middle-East. Further, Cohen’s statement,”Such fecklessness, and the endless conspiracy theories that go with it, suggest an Arab world still gripped by illusion,” alludes to the same tradition of romantic racism originated by the British, in which Arabia is a land of illusion where nothing is knowable for certain and western moralities are irrelevant.

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